Sorry for my silence... Sometimes I lose track of the actual week we're in - all I know is what days I work or have off haha!
I'll be honest: I only read once last week. Reading Scripture and spending time with the Lord has been very dry for me in the last 6 months. I usually chalk it up to the transition and change, but it's been discouraging as heck. A few weeks ago, I finally broke down and was able to process/cry through some of the difficulty of this with a few close friends. I left feeling a little lighter, less guilty, and more hopeful... but at the same time, unsure of what it would look like to try to jump into this study the following week and keep pushing when my heart doesn't feel ready to soak up or engage with the material.
Anyway, I say all this to say: 1) Please give me some grace if I don't jump in 100%. That's my heart's desire, but I'm not going to force it in this season. 2) Here was my takeaway from the week in regards to faith: I think sometimes, faith is even lived out in the understanding that my relationship with God isn't jeopardized by a lack of Bible reading, prayer, and journaling. Obviously it's enhanced by those disciplines, but I think I too often live in "if...then" fear: "If I haven't spent much time with the Lord in the last six months, then I must be doing irreparable damage to our relationship."And that just simply isn't true. My Lord is still the same Lord he was six months ago, and he still loves me the same and has the same patience and grace that he had for me six months ago. So perhaps, at least for now, the real outworking of my faith is being able to walk, work, live, and serve with an unwavering confidence in the validity and stability of my relationship with the Lord, regardless of the circumstances.
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Monday, February 18, 2013
Verse List
Sorry friends... the three-day weekend threw me off!
I thought maybe it would be helpful if I posted the rest of the verses divided out into the weeks in case we ever want to work ahead:
Week 2
I thought maybe it would be helpful if I posted the rest of the verses divided out into the weeks in case we ever want to work ahead:
Week 2
- Matt 16:8; 17:20; 21:21; 23:23
- Mark 2:5; 4:40; 5:34; 10:52; 11:22
- Luke 5:20
- Luke 7:9, 50; 8:25, 48; 12:28; 17:5, 6, 19; 18:8, 42
- Luke 22:32
- Acts 3:16 (2times); 6:5, 7, 8; 11:24; 13:8; 14:9, 22
- Acts 14:27; 15:9; 16:5; 20:21; 24:24; 26:18
- Rom 1:5, 8, 12, 17 (3 times) - I know this is more than 10 references, but it didn't make sense to split up the last three since they are in the same verse!
- Rom 3:3, 22, 25, 27, 28, 30 (two times), 31; Rom 4:5, 9
- Rom 4:11, 12, 13, 14, 16 (two times), 19, 20; 5:1, 2
- Rom 9:30, 32; 10:6, 8, 17; 11:20; 12:3, 6; 14:1, 22
- Rom 14:23 (two times); 16:26
- 1 Cor 2:5; 12:9; 13:2; 13:13; 15:14, 17; 16:13
- 2 Cor 1:24 (two times); 4:13; 5:7; 8:7; 10:15; 13:5
- Gal 1:23; 2:16 (two times)
- Gal 2:20; 3:2, 5, 7, 8, 9, 11, 12, 14, 22
- Gal 3:23 (Two times), 24, 25, 26; 5:5, 6, 22; 6:10
- Eph 1:15
- Eph 2:8; 3:12, 17; 4:5, 13; 6:16, 23
- Col 1:4, 23; 2:5
- Col 2:7, 12
- 1 Thess 1:3, 8; 3:2, 5, 6, 7, 10; 5:8
- 2 Thess 1:3, 4, 11; 3:2
- 1 Tim 1:2, 4, 5, 14, 19 (two times)
- 1 Tim 2:7, 15; 3:9, 13; 4:1, 6, 12; 5:8, 12; 6:10
- 1 Tim 6:12, 21
- 2 Tim 1:5, 13; 2:18, 22; 3:8, 10, 15; 4:7
- Titus 1:1, 4, 13; 2:2; 3:15
- Philemon 1:5, 6
- Hebrews 4:2; 6:1, 12
- Heb 10:22, 38; 11:1, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 (two times), 8
- Heb 11:9, 11, 13, 17, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 27
- Heb 11:28, 29, 30, 31, 33, 39; 12:2; 13:7
- James 1:3, 6
- James 2:1, 5, 14 (two times), 17, 18 (two times), 20, 22 (two times)
- James 2:24, 26; 5:15
- 1 Peter 1:5, 7, 9, 21; 5:9
- 2 Peter 1:1, 5
- 1 John 5:4
- Jude 1:3, 20
- Rev 2:13, 29; 13:10, 14:12
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Take Courage - Week 1
And behold, a woman who had been suffering from a hemorrhage for twelve years, came up behind Him and touched the fringe of His cloak; for she was saying to herself, 'If I only touch the hem of His garment, I shall get well.' But Jesus, turning and seeing her said, 'Daughter, take courage; your faith has made you well.' And at once the woman was made well.
[Matthew 9:22]
If I only touch the hem of His garment - I shall get well.
I'm not gonna lie, this sentence has frustrated me a lot over the years. Sometimes I feel like I'm standing there, asking Him, "Jesus! I'm right here, I'm touching the hem of your cloak, but I'm not getting better." I feel like I'm trapped in habitual sin, and proximity to Him isn't enough.
But I realize it's not just proximity to Him that counts:
Daughter, take courage. Your faith has made you well.
I hear that, and I want those words to be comforting, but I just find myself discouraged - my faith has not made me well.
So what does that mean then? Do I not have enough faith? Do I not want it badly enough? Am I confusing other things for the hem of His cloak? Do I really believe that an encounter with Jesus is all I really need to be healed? Not usually. Especially when it's old stuff in my life.
Jesus, what does it mean to touch the hem of your garment, now that you have gone and left us your Spirit? How do I draw near to you to find healing? I know I need to just stop striving from my own efforts and let you take over, but it's so hard to force calmness on myself.
Daughter, take courage. Your faith has made you well. It's not about touching the hem of my garment. It's about faith that I am enough. And I am enough. In the story, the woman has faith that even the smallest piece of me will be enough. And yet I offer her all of myself. The same offer is extended to you. Take all of me. I promise it's enough.
Thanks once again to Jon Foreman for articulating my thoughts better than I can:
[Matthew 9:22]
If I only touch the hem of His garment - I shall get well.
I'm not gonna lie, this sentence has frustrated me a lot over the years. Sometimes I feel like I'm standing there, asking Him, "Jesus! I'm right here, I'm touching the hem of your cloak, but I'm not getting better." I feel like I'm trapped in habitual sin, and proximity to Him isn't enough.
But I realize it's not just proximity to Him that counts:
Daughter, take courage. Your faith has made you well.
I hear that, and I want those words to be comforting, but I just find myself discouraged - my faith has not made me well.
So what does that mean then? Do I not have enough faith? Do I not want it badly enough? Am I confusing other things for the hem of His cloak? Do I really believe that an encounter with Jesus is all I really need to be healed? Not usually. Especially when it's old stuff in my life.
Jesus, what does it mean to touch the hem of your garment, now that you have gone and left us your Spirit? How do I draw near to you to find healing? I know I need to just stop striving from my own efforts and let you take over, but it's so hard to force calmness on myself.
Daughter, take courage. Your faith has made you well. It's not about touching the hem of my garment. It's about faith that I am enough. And I am enough. In the story, the woman has faith that even the smallest piece of me will be enough. And yet I offer her all of myself. The same offer is extended to you. Take all of me. I promise it's enough.
Thanks once again to Jon Foreman for articulating my thoughts better than I can:
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
week 1
Sorry for typos ... i typed the majority of this on my phone. Haha. So glad we are doing this even though I miss actually seeing you!
Deuteronomy 32:20
"... they are a perverse generation, children in whom is no faith." My first thought was, "Lord, do you ever feel like saying this about your church?" It seems that we often are children who do not trust or display faith. Others could see the church and wonder if, in fact, we really do have faith in a God who wants restoration for his world.
Habakkuk 2:4
Depending on the translation, the meaning could be "the righteous will live by his faith (belief)" or "the righteous will live by his faithfulness." Interesting to think about the different implications, but either way it is clear that we cannot live righteously without the presence of the Holy Spirit in our lives and without Jesus' faith in God's sovereign plan and faithfulness to carry it out.
Matthew 6:30
In Matt 6:28 the "plants/grass" are referred to as "lilies of the field" and in v. 29 it says "not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these." It is interesting that the mere survival of the lilies is not what is significant here, but it is the magnificence (or splendor) or the flowers. In the words of a commentary I read, "God lavishes on them a craftsman's care which the most ostentatious monarch can only envy." I think this verse is often used to only to show that God meets our basic needs, but the reference to lilies seems to imply that God not only supplies our basic needs, but also displays his glory in us (like imagery found throughout Isaiah).
This verse also made me realize that sometimes I don't trust God for the right things because it sometimes feels like he is not meeting what I think are my basic needs... guess I need to spend some time figuring out what God really thinks I need and what I have added or expected that God has not promised. One example I continue to wrestle with is stability in my life... I keep really wanting it and thinking I need it, but God never really promises that to his believers.
Matthew 8:10
"I tell you the truth, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith. " It almost seems like it would be expected for great faith to be found among God's people and those who walked with Jesus. However, we find it in an outsider here. This made me wonder "where/when can true faith be expected?" "Where have we found it that has been surprising? "
Also, because faith is cited as the reason for miraculous healing, it made me think about how often i believe that God can act but might not. Instead of these examples of people who believed he could and could not fathom that he would not. It's challenging because I have seen God choose not to act in the ways that people believed he would and I know his plan is superior to mine (and beyond my comprehension at times. In light of that, what does real, humble faith look like?
Matt 8:26
I actually feel a little bad for the disciples in this story because they get so much flack for not believing... but perhaps they felt like at that print Jesus would have acted by then and since he hadn't they feared he wouldn't. Sometimes in my own life and faith the timeline that i think God is on is not really His timeline and that can cause me to believe he has chosen not to act... convicting to think about.
Matt 9:2
The faith of the community is what brought healing. .. do I surround myself with a community of strong faith? Do I contribute to one?
Matt 9:22
I wondered what part of the woman's faith Jesus was commending. Was it her act of racing out to touch the garment? Was it her travel to find Jesus after heading about him? Was it persistent prayers for healing during the 12 years ? Did she ever doubt during the 12 years that she would be healed? I am pretty sure I would have just assumed I would bleed the rest of my life and been looking for Jesus to heal something more recent or seemingly temporary. .. and he would say "oh ye of little faith"
Matt 14:31
I love that Jesus reaches out to him in spite of his lacking faith. that grace is reassuring because I will never have perfect faith. One commentary said this which I found helpful: "Peter lacked practical confidence required from those who seek supernatural provision. "We have to be willing and practical enough to believe the seemingly impossible could be possible which is what makes faith in God so unique and tricky to talk about sometimes.
I also ended this passage thinking: how often do I believe enough to get right to the brink of
seeing God's supernatural inbreaking and get too afraid to step into it? Or believe that it will actually happen?
Matt 15:28
This woman (not a Jew) grasps that faith is not only for Jesus' sake, but is part of how he seeks to bring restoration to the world. This passage really helped crystallize Matthew's use of faith throughout his book. He shows that faith is more important than exact law following and that faith at that time was stronger outside the Jewish community than in it. This speaks to Jesus' desire to extend the kingdom.
Deuteronomy 32:20
"... they are a perverse generation, children in whom is no faith." My first thought was, "Lord, do you ever feel like saying this about your church?" It seems that we often are children who do not trust or display faith. Others could see the church and wonder if, in fact, we really do have faith in a God who wants restoration for his world.
Habakkuk 2:4
Depending on the translation, the meaning could be "the righteous will live by his faith (belief)" or "the righteous will live by his faithfulness." Interesting to think about the different implications, but either way it is clear that we cannot live righteously without the presence of the Holy Spirit in our lives and without Jesus' faith in God's sovereign plan and faithfulness to carry it out.
Matthew 6:30
In Matt 6:28 the "plants/grass" are referred to as "lilies of the field" and in v. 29 it says "not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these." It is interesting that the mere survival of the lilies is not what is significant here, but it is the magnificence (or splendor) or the flowers. In the words of a commentary I read, "God lavishes on them a craftsman's care which the most ostentatious monarch can only envy." I think this verse is often used to only to show that God meets our basic needs, but the reference to lilies seems to imply that God not only supplies our basic needs, but also displays his glory in us (like imagery found throughout Isaiah).
This verse also made me realize that sometimes I don't trust God for the right things because it sometimes feels like he is not meeting what I think are my basic needs... guess I need to spend some time figuring out what God really thinks I need and what I have added or expected that God has not promised. One example I continue to wrestle with is stability in my life... I keep really wanting it and thinking I need it, but God never really promises that to his believers.
Matthew 8:10
"I tell you the truth, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith. " It almost seems like it would be expected for great faith to be found among God's people and those who walked with Jesus. However, we find it in an outsider here. This made me wonder "where/when can true faith be expected?" "Where have we found it that has been surprising? "
Also, because faith is cited as the reason for miraculous healing, it made me think about how often i believe that God can act but might not. Instead of these examples of people who believed he could and could not fathom that he would not. It's challenging because I have seen God choose not to act in the ways that people believed he would and I know his plan is superior to mine (and beyond my comprehension at times. In light of that, what does real, humble faith look like?
Matt 8:26
I actually feel a little bad for the disciples in this story because they get so much flack for not believing... but perhaps they felt like at that print Jesus would have acted by then and since he hadn't they feared he wouldn't. Sometimes in my own life and faith the timeline that i think God is on is not really His timeline and that can cause me to believe he has chosen not to act... convicting to think about.
Matt 9:2
The faith of the community is what brought healing. .. do I surround myself with a community of strong faith? Do I contribute to one?
Matt 9:22
I wondered what part of the woman's faith Jesus was commending. Was it her act of racing out to touch the garment? Was it her travel to find Jesus after heading about him? Was it persistent prayers for healing during the 12 years ? Did she ever doubt during the 12 years that she would be healed? I am pretty sure I would have just assumed I would bleed the rest of my life and been looking for Jesus to heal something more recent or seemingly temporary. .. and he would say "oh ye of little faith"
Matt 14:31
I love that Jesus reaches out to him in spite of his lacking faith. that grace is reassuring because I will never have perfect faith. One commentary said this which I found helpful: "Peter lacked practical confidence required from those who seek supernatural provision. "We have to be willing and practical enough to believe the seemingly impossible could be possible which is what makes faith in God so unique and tricky to talk about sometimes.
I also ended this passage thinking: how often do I believe enough to get right to the brink of
seeing God's supernatural inbreaking and get too afraid to step into it? Or believe that it will actually happen?
Matt 15:28
This woman (not a Jew) grasps that faith is not only for Jesus' sake, but is part of how he seeks to bring restoration to the world. This passage really helped crystallize Matthew's use of faith throughout his book. He shows that faith is more important than exact law following and that faith at that time was stronger outside the Jewish community than in it. This speaks to Jesus' desire to extend the kingdom.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
We're really doing it!
Whoooo! We are officially bringing back the blog. AND we have one more friend to join us - one of mine and Alyssa's very dearest friends from houseboats, Emily, is going to do the Faith study with us. :)
So here's the plan.
I think what we'll do is Lissa will post ten verses from her concordance's list of faith verses every Sunday. Then during the week we will all read and study individually, and then sometime later on in the week we can all post about what we found interesting, insightful, encouraging, convicting, etc. Obviously, we're not going to be crazy legalistic about it or anything, but I think if we all aim for one post a week (ish), that'll help us keep it going.
Then the next Sunday we'll get more verses and start again!
Since Lissa already gave me the first ten, I'll just post them here now, and then she can take over for next week.
Deuteronomy 32:30
Habakkuk 2:4
Matthew 6:30, 8:10, 8:26, 9:2, 9:22, 9:29, 14:31, 15:28
Happy studying! Looking forward to fellowshipping with you all from afar!
Pearl
So here's the plan.
I think what we'll do is Lissa will post ten verses from her concordance's list of faith verses every Sunday. Then during the week we will all read and study individually, and then sometime later on in the week we can all post about what we found interesting, insightful, encouraging, convicting, etc. Obviously, we're not going to be crazy legalistic about it or anything, but I think if we all aim for one post a week (ish), that'll help us keep it going.
Then the next Sunday we'll get more verses and start again!
Since Lissa already gave me the first ten, I'll just post them here now, and then she can take over for next week.
Deuteronomy 32:30
Habakkuk 2:4
Matthew 6:30, 8:10, 8:26, 9:2, 9:22, 9:29, 14:31, 15:28
Happy studying! Looking forward to fellowshipping with you all from afar!
Pearl
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Revival!
Let's get this thing going!! Pearl has a smaller concordance than Lissa's ginormous one, but she still has a list one and we've looked up all the references under "Faith".
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Post-Summer
Hey friends.
Not sure if anyone is still checking this thing (I know I wasn't until a couple of days ago), but here we go anyway.
I just wanted to use this space to say that I have not been very diligent about pursuing joy this summer. I also have not been very diligent about pursing Jesus (or even study of Jesus) much at all. And I have to admit that the one thing I've been pretty consistent about is resisting Jesus and saying a deliberate 'no' to him. It hasn't been in externally obvious ways (not at first glance anyway), but my mindset and the attitude of my heart are clearly misplaced. It has just been the "little" things - 'little' in quotes because I know that's a word the enemy sneaks in to help me rationalize. Just small but very intentional thoughts like, Sorry, I just don't want to sit with you now. Or, Yes, I hear you. I understand. But that's not what I'm going to do. Sometimes it's even sneakier: Eh... Don't be so legalistic about quiet times, Pearl. Prayer is a life-style.
Ouch.
Am I really that easy to get at?
Obviously I am. And the pretty clear result has been a severe lack of joy. It hasn't been a summer completely void of joy, but I'm finding myself scraping the bottom of the barrel more and more to muster up a little more, and that stinks.
I know where I'm 'supposed' to be, or at least where I wish I was - but I seem to be stuck in a pit of my own stubbornness. I know what the problem is. I can hear him calling me to lay a couple of specific things to rest - and my answer has been this: Don't worry, I will. I just need to get a couple of other things taken care of first...
Surprisingly enough, the Great I AM is not being flexible with his plans.
I feel like I'm at a little bit of an old wineskins/new wineskins moment. I've been operating with the same view of God for a while, but I've been changing, and the way He relates to me is changing - so that old view just isn't going to fit anymore. Trying to force it to fit is ruining both the old and the new (Mk. 2:22).
So I'm diving back into the Joy Study, and asking him for some pretty intense revelation of who he is. I know it's not like I'm going to get him 'figured out' in a week and a half or something, but I'm just asking him to show up. I'm picking up where I left of - and probably back-tracking into the Old Testament a little bit too.
Thanks for journeying alongside me.
Pearl
Not sure if anyone is still checking this thing (I know I wasn't until a couple of days ago), but here we go anyway.
I just wanted to use this space to say that I have not been very diligent about pursuing joy this summer. I also have not been very diligent about pursing Jesus (or even study of Jesus) much at all. And I have to admit that the one thing I've been pretty consistent about is resisting Jesus and saying a deliberate 'no' to him. It hasn't been in externally obvious ways (not at first glance anyway), but my mindset and the attitude of my heart are clearly misplaced. It has just been the "little" things - 'little' in quotes because I know that's a word the enemy sneaks in to help me rationalize. Just small but very intentional thoughts like, Sorry, I just don't want to sit with you now. Or, Yes, I hear you. I understand. But that's not what I'm going to do. Sometimes it's even sneakier: Eh... Don't be so legalistic about quiet times, Pearl. Prayer is a life-style.
Ouch.
Am I really that easy to get at?
Obviously I am. And the pretty clear result has been a severe lack of joy. It hasn't been a summer completely void of joy, but I'm finding myself scraping the bottom of the barrel more and more to muster up a little more, and that stinks.
I know where I'm 'supposed' to be, or at least where I wish I was - but I seem to be stuck in a pit of my own stubbornness. I know what the problem is. I can hear him calling me to lay a couple of specific things to rest - and my answer has been this: Don't worry, I will. I just need to get a couple of other things taken care of first...
Surprisingly enough, the Great I AM is not being flexible with his plans.
I feel like I'm at a little bit of an old wineskins/new wineskins moment. I've been operating with the same view of God for a while, but I've been changing, and the way He relates to me is changing - so that old view just isn't going to fit anymore. Trying to force it to fit is ruining both the old and the new (Mk. 2:22).
So I'm diving back into the Joy Study, and asking him for some pretty intense revelation of who he is. I know it's not like I'm going to get him 'figured out' in a week and a half or something, but I'm just asking him to show up. I'm picking up where I left of - and probably back-tracking into the Old Testament a little bit too.
Thanks for journeying alongside me.
Pearl
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